almost a week on and still scared of food

I am down to 73.3kg but yesterday all I had was 6 graham crackers, two bananas and like a piece of bread. Today I’ve had sticky toffee pudding, salad and some carrot and coriander soup. I also saw my community psychiatric nurse who when I told her I was scared of eating and fat she [...]

food issues

I’m struggling with food. Last night I had a job to eat tea. I’m so scared of it and have little appetite. I keep thinking something bad is going to  happen if I eat. I’m petrified. I can’t be bothered and all I have is £5 till tues at least £1 of which will go [...]

Monday morning thoughts

Well, good morning. How are you all? I’m fine. I’ve been on the phone to ‘Mad Marg’ from BS (she’s not really mad – just a tad eccentric but very professional and very good with me and I trust her) for half the night having been tossing and turning a lot.
I’ve not been sleeping properly. [...]

jogging, phone and DLA

I HAD A SHOWER THIS AM – WHOOP WHOOP WHOOP. Normally I just shower after jogging (and I wash my hair. It’s pretty long) but today I managed to shower this am. Whoop whoop whoop. I just need to get my teeth brushing under control and I have dentist tomorrow for extractions . Not [...]

day before leaving ma’s

Well it’s the morning before leaving Ma’s and I feel somewhat nonchulant (pardon the spelling). I will miss Ma dearly and I’m worried about how I’ll cope when she dies. I really love coming here for my holidays. I will miss that more than anything. I will also miss her contact. But the Lord will [...]

HAPPY NEW YEARsORR

Sorry no pics but like I’m away from my desk and do this a la mobile and only have 250mb download till tues. How is everyone?
This is now Day 4 of no conspiracy and no robots and  no bad thoughts – woo hoo. I’m able to listen to the news and read the paper and [...]