Bad weekend but feeling better

Well I don’t know if I should be saying this but I had a really bad weekend and got very down and wasn’t feeling very safe in the flat at all. Today though has been so much better and it’s because you all PRAYED. Thankyou so much. Yesterday was a little better and right now [...]

re. feeling better thanks for your prayers

Thanks to everyone who has prayed and continues to pray for me. Yet again your prayers have kept me from the pit I kid ye not. I’m sitting here this afternoon thinking how blissful life would be if only  I learnt a greater submission to the Lord in all things. I mean all things. Our [...]

muddled

been muddled since last night and like missed prayer meeting cos I was so muddled. This am I’m trying to do ‘normal’ stuff (like jogging etc) but I can’t get away from the conspiracy and the robots. Seeing dr. c on friday which has given me some hope. Still got creepy crawlies all over my [...]

thanks for your prayers

I had a really bad day yesterday and didn’t make church. A sermon on loneliness from Sermon Audio (via a link from this SGS) got me through the worst of it. I felt so down. I had lots of ’symptoms’ as well. And someone from Christian Cafe gave me some really good advice as well. [...]

Blogging on the Sabbath but I need to tell someone

I feel like I want to go back into hibernation. I feel quite low. Those side effect tablets were really good for the anxiety and now I’m back to square minus one since coming off them due to the  bad reaction. I feel so low. I feel like the conspiracy is really bad yet I [...]

re. why go to church

If you’re spiritually alive, you’re going to love this! If you’re
spiritually dead, you won’t want to read it. If you’re spirituallycurious, there is still hope!

A Church goer wrote a letter to the editor of a newspaper and complained that it made no sense to go to church every Sunday.
“I’ve gone for 30 years now,” [...]

Just need to write to you….

I just need to write like I wrote in the old journal de johanino. I just need to write. I missed my depot shot on Thursday due to like the reaction I was having off the kemadrin and the chlorpromazine and now I’m full (well not quite but getting there) of robots and the conspiracy [...]

jogging – couch 2 5k. week 6, day 3

Morning all. Blessings. Just got back fae jog. Went well all things considered. Was supposed 2 run 4 25 mins 0 stops but managed 23 & then had 30 second break b4 finishing it. When u consider how ill I’ve bin with reactions 2 the meds I think I did ok. Next wk is a [...]

allergies & calories

I know I shudn’t weigh < than once a wk but I just weighed & think my weight will b down by min 1lb in the am. Sparkpeople want me 2 eat 1550 kcal a day cos of all my exercise but I just want 1400
And I have an allergic reaction 2 something

How i feel about food tonight – march 9th 2009

·         Scared of eating in public
·         Scales are alive and to be worshipped like an idol
·         Got to stick within calorie range of 1200-1400 cals a day
·         Got to count calories (www.sparkpeople.com)
·         Got to drink min 2 litres of water  a day
·         Milk is also a bad food. Black coffee makes me feel [...]