All I’ve had to eat today is like a bowl of porridge and a banana. I’m just sitting here so hungry and so anxious!!! I keep thinking if I eat or try and prepare food the robots and the CIA will come and kill me and stuff. It’s just so scary you would not believe. I don’t know who to tell.
At the drop in centre they had a questionaire about funding. They reckon they’ll get their funding cut again next year and where will that leave me? I pray they put a 24 hour crisis line in place or something cos right now I’m needing help with just about all the basics – taking meds (which I’m not doing apart from depot), eating, showering, brushing my teeth, washing my hair. I need to be reminded and encouraged and reassured on all these points. I need someone to sit with me when I eat and prepare food cos I’m scared witless otherwise and I’m actually quite low right now. I feel like no one loves me and I feel so alone you would not believe and I’m sitting worrying my life away (pretty literally) and I don’t feel safe. I can’t make myself feel safe by tidying because I feel nauseaus with hunger. I feel dizzy and lightheaded too. I don’t have that much refined sugar in my diet and I’m craving carbs and protein and veg (sort of not the veg but I don’t just have protein and carbs).
I think I’m about to become keyfaced and keel over so best go…..
J
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Hey, Jo — You ARE loved!!! Hang in there, my friend! And remember — don’t worry about tomorrow, as you don’t know (and can’t control) what tomorrow may bring. But the King of Kings has already provided for today … and tomorrow … and the day after … and the day after …. Be anxious about NOTHING, but in everything by prayer and supplication make your requests known to God. (I know, easier said than done at times!) Remember, God is greater than the CIA. And robots are commanded to “Do no harm to humans” (per Issac Asimov’s 5 golden rules for robotics).
Hugs to you, sister,
MW