I got my normal anxieties back last night (see last post) and I’m back smoking (for now). I think the patches just make me way too anxious with the lack of nicotine.
The remedy to all this is simple. To simply and in a childlike manner TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL OF THINE HEART AND LEAN NOT ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING. IN ALL YOUR WAYS ACKNOWLEGE HIM AND HE WILL MAKE YOUR PATHS STRAIGHT.
But sometimes I wonder if I’m too much of a sinner for that!
I was thinking last night – tired and anxious how my healing will come through music and craft work. On Friday I got a load of craft kits cheap that I can sell on folksy for a profit once I’ve made them up and yesterday I got a tonne of music for the keyboard and the whistle for a tenner from a charity shop. The Lord be praised.
Ma is being Ma right now. Feistily independant and won’t be told. I feared this and often quite negative and prone to putting herself down. I am like a lobster with the meds but anyhow. I am really sore and it’s been 21c here for the past few day so I’ve been out in the garden and what not.
So back to what I was saying about music and craft work. This is going to be my routine for the winter – music in the day, craft at night. So obviously I need to be prepared.I can’t join SCAT (scottish culture and traditions)till I’m semi competant @ the whistle so that’ll be the Fall DV. So I have to practice my socks off for now but the timings on the folk music are so hard to get ones head around and I don’t know how fast to play them.
Anyhow sorry for such a short blog entry. I’m not on my own pc and feel very self conscious and uninspired to write.
J
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