Sorry for not writing for over a week. I planned to write on Monday but I’m now pcless for the time being so just doing a quick note ala public library before going grocery shopping.
Praise God the budget is back on track – phew.
But Ma is still being a pain. I mean, why is it whenever I have probs she always has to have probs. I mean honestly!!! Yesterday she was crying her eyes out and took far too much Bach’s rescue remedy and I’m like – be careful. And then she wouldn’t speak to me so I gave her some tough love but this am she wasn’t reassuring in her morning text and just said she wouldn’t tell me when she was down anymore she just wouldn’t answer the phone. Well I KNOW she can’t look after herself properly so I shall just call the police on her. I mean, who else would almost OD on rescue remedy. I won’t forget her preventing me from getting help with the robots by being manipulative when I was down there. I won’t forget and I won’t forgive in a hurry. She is just trying to control me yet when I stand up for myself and say “Hey I’m a grown up. I can handle this” she just can’t take it. She is also not respecting me by not even paying two pennyworth’s heed to my advice. I know I’m not good enough for her. She doesn’t need to rub it in!!!
So anyhow. I’m pcless right now. Who knows what on earth I did to it but it’s at a pal’s getting mended and I don’t know when I’ll get it back. I’m trying not to phone my friend till tomorrow asking about it but I really am quite anxious to get it back.
Also like the bank didn’t accept the debt counsellor’s first offer so that is also a worry. And I need dentures and I’m thinking “If I get a job I’ll be paying full whack for those that I can’t afford” so maybe getting a job isn’t wise for now. I don’t know. I will have to simply trust the Lord and see what happens.
Anyhow eating is fine apart from the odd binge and like sometimes I eat and sometimes I don’t. I am really into Sainsbury’s Pecan and Butterscotch indulgence cones right now. I must remember to brush my teeth more often but how easy it is to forget.
Hope you are welll. If you don’t hear from me for a few days sorry, I don’t have access to much via the Blackberry..
J
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